Saturday, December 20, 2014

Such an Overwhelming Love!

It is so overwhelming the love our Lord has for his creation that he would extend his grace to us; even after such a fall-a display of outright ingratitude and pride. Presumptuous are we to think the only thing we need to enter His kingdom is a few words of acceptance of this grace and love.

It is this grace that lets us even have the desire to worship anything much less the unimaginable God that he is. "No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him (John 6:44)."

Many people believe they can pluck his goodness from their surrounding air space like Eve the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil-so conveniently. Yes, he is available; and yes, he loves everyone of us; and yes he wants that relationship with us. Our attitude as a race of people is what I address this morning as we continue into this Christmas season.

This is not negative as many of you have already braced yourselves to receive it. It is actually a positive message to cry out to you. Stop for a few minutes or an hour-whatever! Grab the hand of a loved one by you and thank the Lord of Heaven for such a wonderful gift as his breath in you and that special person with you. Maybe  you are alone today. Begin to thank the Lord for the memories, the good ones and the lessons learned from the not-so good ones.

Finally thank him for life and the chance to know him, the One and only God who actually visited this world as one of us. That is enough to be grateful. He wanted us so badly that he became one of us to reach out to us. All of us can find-if we wrap our hearts around that truth-thanksgiving and praise for it. May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and his peace surround you this season. Don't leave him out of your celebration!

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

#Depression -From Dilemma to Despair

#Robin Williams was a funny man, and a great actor. He is not the first person that has ended his life, much less the first famous person that did so. The last few years were witness to several spotlighted individuals who chose to end their lives at their own hands. "He was depressed" many say.

Depression; whether chemical, spiritual, emotional, psychological or combination of two or three of these, is reason for suicide-the cause for the largest number of deaths in the nation.

Are you Depressed? Overwhelmed? Bitter and Resentful?
There is great merit to taking responsibility for ourselves and our actions and then admitting that we alone can do nothing about the problem. The simple solution in all its glory. It's just that simple. Easy? Not always. Depression is often fear and anger held behind pride. The answer? Let it go; Talk it out! Swallow the pride and ask for help!

Get a trusted friend who will lovingly tell you the truth and to whom you can stay accountable. Stay with this person and work to honestly get to the bottom and root of your feelings, fears, worries, etc.
 "I don't have time." You need to make time because your life depends on it. It is better to come apart (from life stresses) before you come apart. There is no shame to talking to someone. No one is an island and no one should suffer alone. Pain, even psychological and emotional pain, is a sign that something is wrong or missing.

Yes; There is a God who can fill that gap and solve that problem; and He loves you more than you ever realize or even imagine.There are other people somewhere else who suffer with the same shame and the same bitterness, worry and circumstances that you do.

I was a child who grew up being bullied and picked on. I lost my father when I was about 6, was violated when I was 5, I grew up with bitterness and unforgiveness through my teenage years and began to act out and binge drink into my early to mid twenties. I finally faced myself in the mirror and decided I would not let bitterness toward others control my life. I would not let self hatred  hold me captive and pride kept me from letting go and talking to someone I trusted. I eventually put my life in the hands of the Loving God that created it and let him recreate me as I was reborn by the washing of his blood and the resurrection power of his Spirit. I have lived for almost 20 years with the Lord Jesus Christ as my hope and purpose for living. Have I been worry free? No. I lost my job during this recession and in turn lost my house, as well as confidence in myself to obtain another job and be productive in it. I even lost my joy and pleasure in doing some of the things I enjoyed. I became depressed. But, I remembered that even with all the "evil" that visits our lives, Jesus still holds the answers. It is not up to us to find those answers or to figure out what to do in times of crisis. We need to trust Him; we need to believe that He holds it all in His hands. He will do everything to keep that which is entrusted into his care. We can do nothing but He can do All things. The reason he doesn't is that we never give Him the chance. When you are out of resources He is the source!

It is up to you to make that first move. Make a decision to stay the attacks of depression. Even if, for  now, it is to seek out a friend (you can see). Don't face this alone. Don't let it get to despair. Then, give Jesus a chance. Simply ask him to surround you and I pray this now as I write: Jesus, surround those who are desperate and seeking solace and relief from depression, worry, grief from loss, and bitterness. Let them know that you are near and waiting on their call to deliver. Give them peace in their homes and in their minds and hearts. Send them a friend who can lead them your way. In Jesus Name. Amen ("So be it!").

Monday, July 14, 2014

What is "Enough?"

I just started reading this book by Will Davis, Jr., entitled Enough.
I thought success was financial or had to do with who knew me and what I was doing. Am I popular, praised, prospering? I found this book in the nook section and started to skim over the pages. This goes right along with what the Lord showed me in his times with me, lately. He has been working with my trust in him.

If we will realize that the Lord Jesus Christ has created and owns everything we have  (in our possession) and that we are merely the bookkeepers; we will gain the right perspective when it comes to our financial management. Also, we must realize that only he gets the glory honor and praise for everything (even the bad can be used for good -Romans 8:28). We can trust him for what seems to be impossible to us, because we realize that the answer is not limited to our disposable resources but his riches in glory (Philippians 4:19).

I invite you to grab a copy or order one on your Nook or Kindle and read along. Virtual readers group! :)

I will start with the Introduction and probably Chapter 1 for this week. We can read and share our thoughts on a chapter each week. Again feel free to grab a copy and comment as you read. Hope to see your feedback.

There are a couple more books listed on this page if you are interested.
Have a great day.

Kendra St John

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

The Painful Process of Forming

We have all knelt at that altar and cried tears of love and adoration or made hasty vows to God bargaining for salvation from (fill in the blank). Our prayers were something like this: "Lord, make me more like you; remove from me those things that hinder me from holy living." Are you ready for these prayers to be answered? Are we ready to be pulled apart, heated up, broken, beaten, nailed to our own crosses by those closest to us or even the thorns in our sides with whom we work on a day to day basis?

There are many analogies we can use to describe this process. The most well-known is that of the Potter and his clay. As he forms the clay, heats it up, breaks it apart and reforms it; the clay begins to either decrease in size and/or density as he cuts or pulls out pieces that are hard.

Some of us pray for an anointed ministry, but to have the anointing we must go through much of the same crushing, beating, scraping, pressing that goes on in the shaping process of the clay. There is no escape from the process if we want maturity and intimacy with the Lord. Yes, we can squeeze by with just our enlivened spirit reborn of the Spirit of Christ and sins washed by his blood through baptism in Jesus name. Why settle for so little when we could be so much more blessed, glorious and victorious?

This is not about works but about a relationship and a maturity that requires work and endurance. Form me by whatever means needed. Bring me to the end of myself. Let my cup be carved hollow and filled with You; let it be cracked so that Your glory shines through-no matter what I must go through for it to be so.

Are we ready, truly ready to be formed into His image- the full stature of Christ (Ephesians 4:13)?

Friday, June 20, 2014

Life or Death; Blessing or Bitterness

I hope this post finds you all well today.

Went to a Bible study this past Wednesday. We were discussing the power of creation in the spoken word.

This reminded me about Mary the Mother of Jesus. Adam and Eve ate from both the Tree of Life, everyday they were in the garden until that one day of disobedience. They also ate of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, which gave the curse of death.

I said that to say this. They ate of Life and Death. Just as we use the mouth to consume we can use the mouth to defile and murder or create and bless. "Life and Death are both in the tongue. He who delights in it will eat the fruit of it."

Now, the point. Mary had the same power of the tongue. Her name, from the original language in Hebrew, "Marah", means "bitterness." (Remember the story of Ruth. After she lost her husband and both of her sons, Naomi returned with Ruth to Bethlehem.  She changed her name to Marah, because God dealt bitterly with her).

Friday, June 13, 2014

#Beware of the "New Thing (Get Anchored in Truth)!"

Presently, I am at a point where I am full of ideas from yesterdays and processing them through my "system of research" but there is nothing that is grabbing me at this time in way of where to take it from that point of research. No melody is coming to mind. No cool riff or group of notes-nothing. I am just practicing my guitar and my piano and learning new chords and scales. But I keep working at old ideas and doing what I can to persevere.

Can I tell you very seriously that many people give up on hobbies, talents, relationships, college and/or careers, even faith in God, because it gets to the daily step by step-the mundane. Nothing spectacular is happening and the novelty has left. We race to the next new thing. Marketers target people who search for the new and next big thing for sale. Religions and cults attract people who look for sensational spiritual events, services, signs and wonders. 

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Old Foul Spirit of Negativity

I really did not know what else to call this thing. The Lord showed me this in a dream. There is this miniature human, like a dwarf-imp; the bodily features are correctly proportioned. It was more the size of a toddler, but with gray hair. It sits around looking for a vulnerable person onto whom it can latch. Out of its mouth is this stuff (pretty disgusting really-like a flow of baby spit-up that never ceased). It was covered with it. So, in the dream it latched to me.

I ran everywhere trying to get rid of it. The harder I tried to push it off, the tighter it clung to me. I finally woke up from the dream; pleading the blood of Jesus to wash me from any spirit of the enemy (Satan). I asked the Lord for forgiveness for letting it near me in the first place and, finally, I asked him to root out anything that would have caused such a spirit to be attracted to me.

Thursday, May 22, 2014

#Let Contentions Turn to Compassion

It has been a little while since I posted. I have been away from the computer for some growth and meditation time. Sometimes the Lord moves things out of the way so that he is the one to whom we go for help or conversation. Sometimes it is so that our own spouses are called for work or friends are not available. So JESUS is right there saying, okay everyone is gone. Care to give me a shot at your problem?

Thursday, May 15, 2014

#Do You Really Know Jesus(Knowing Him on a Deeper Level))?

    When I was young, I went to church and heard the stories of Jesus and his many miracles: his birth, his life of healing, teachings, dominion over natural laws and ultimately his death and resurrection. I appreciated all I heard and began to love this Jesus for all he did for me. This was what I was raised to know through Sunday School and church attendance.
    As a young adult, I began to deal with some things from my childhood that I did not understand as a child. I committed sins on a regular basis to cope with some of the losses I experienced. Looking back to that time, I see how sensitive I was and how much I wanted to please Jesus and be close to him, but I kept falling short.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

#Only Trust Him (Cure for Impatience)!

May 10, 2014

We all question the events in our lives when we lose those that are close to us, lose jobs that we had held for years, homes, money, retirement, dreams. We all ask the same question, Why? or why me? Why did God have to let this happen to me?

Job is the perfect example of this scenario, especially when his friends enter the scene and counsel him about his walk with God. Surely, the innocent would not be punished as your are (paraphrase). or You must not be a real Christian if you're broke or ill of health. God isn't smiling on you now is he? All the while we know we have done our best to stay close to the Lord and live the way we should according to his Word.

There are lessons (plural) to be learned in these times:

Monday, May 5, 2014

#Words do Hurt but Jesus Heals (Wounded by Words?)


Words of violence and hatred are thrown across cyber-space and destroying others in what we call cyber-bullying. This includes the use of cell phones with internet and text capabilities. It really does not make a difference what manner or tool is used. It is still bullying; and it has been around for decades and even centuries. There is still damage at its wake. 

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Where Would I Be Without the Lord?


I am truly grateful that the Lord is for me and I am for him. I know that it is for nothing but grace that I am able to look to him in love and devotion. If it were not for him I would be lost-totally lost. He has been better to me than I could ever be to myself.

I listened to a sermon today about the way we think as blood bought children of God. If we claim to be children of God (by regeneration) we cannot entertain the negative, fearful, worrisome, wrathful thoughts that come only from the devil himself.

Friday, May 2, 2014

A Work in Progress

May 2, 2014

Good evening and thanks to those who dropped by. Things are slowly coming along on this blog but I am encouraged; however, knowing that it will all turn out for the good and that many will be touched by its ministry. Construction is a little more difficult than I had expected, but I am learning as I go. It is a journey just to get this blog working the way I want it to work.

I hope to have more content in the near future.

Thank you for your patience; and God bless.

Thursday, May 1, 2014



Something has been itching me to start a blog. I know I do not have a famous name, wealth or pedigree as far as this world is concerned. I am a child of the king and beloved part of his Bride the Church. What I do have I give you; a look into my journey home. I will share my hopes, dreams, songs that moved me that are my works as well as others', books read, scripture from the Word of God that have lifted me in times of doubt and frustration as well as advice that I have gleaned along the way. 

My journey began as I turned my life, with its failures, fears, false securities, successes and future sights; over to the One true God-Jesus Christ. 

Again, this is my journey home to be with the best friend I have ever known! May this journey's blog encourage and build you as it has me! If you do not know him I pray that you will; and will join me in this wonderful journey to see Him face to face. 

Blessings in His Wonderful Name,

Kendra St John 

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